IM BACK!!! Happy new year po sa lahat ng tao...

Na feel mo na ba ung pakiramdam mo lagi ikaw may kasalanan? Na khet anong gawen mo.. parang lahat ng kamay nakaturo sayo?? Well, if youre feeling the same, welcome to the club!

Naalala ko hindi ito ung unang pagkakataon na na feel ko to.. ewan ko.. i really feel im not fit for anyone.. i hate this feeling... naawa ako sa sarili ko kse pati sarili ko bineblame ko, pati ako nakikituro..

Honestly, im not the type na mahilig mang amo ng tao.. but i learned how to nung pumasok ako sa relasyon... kaya lang kung ako na ung nang aamo tapos konting mali ko, may magtatampo.. san ka pa??! FYI lang, hindi ako si madam auring na pwedeng hulaan kung ano tumatakbo sa utak mo.... nakakainis at nakakapagod un dba???? feel ko wala na kong ginawang tama! at kung hindi ako gagalaw or gagawa ng paraan, pasenshahan ... san ka pa?!

oo! ilan beses na ko umiyak.. nakakapagod na din.. minsan wala na talga luha na tutulo... shempre nagiging one sided ako pag down ako... nalulungkot ako kse hindi ko alam kung pano ko pa iiimprove ung sarili ko para hindi lang ako makaramdam ng ganito... kaya ko to! (as if?! )

hindi ko alam kung hanggang kelan magiging ganito ang scenario... hanggang kelan.. di ko alam... i just hope this fucking feeling would end....

Taking a different view on tori amos' taxi ride; I find myself in such a state. Indeed the trip was an experience; I really
enjoyed the journey. I learned so many things I would
never ever have known if I decided not to hitch.. It was a
mutual agreement to be on that trip; we were both
determined to grab the chance. Yes, there were bumpy
times; I understood not all roads were made flat.
Nevertheless, we were able to make it through and go on
with the journey. One thing learned was the essence of
taking care both of the passenger and the taxi were in
otherwise di kme makakarating sa gusto namen puntahan.
A few months passed, we did not even
bothered to count how many days we’ve been together, shempre papunta pa din sa aming destinasyon…
I remember there was a time, when the taxi overheated; we were thinking of riding different taxis separately!!! Kala ko un na un... ENd na as in ! Whew! good thing we came to our senses and promised to work it out and still travel together. Riding on the same taxi, we drove….. smooth sailing, I almost forgot the first thing I learned from this trip!!!!

We often take unusual paths; soooo different from any other
couple. Unique, we are.. if I may say. May times na naliligaw kme ... Heheheh pero ok lang, we can always come back
from where we’ve started.

Ngaun, I don’t know where we are..pero were still together.
It feels like were on a dead end, with no sufficient gas to go back.
Cguro ung taxi na ung bumigay smen… as much as we would like to travel together on that same taxi, the taxi wont let us na…

ka sad

TAXI RIDE
Tori Amos

lily is dancing on the table
we've all been pushed too far
i guess on days like this
you know who your friends are
just another dead fag
to you that's all
just another light missing
on a long taxi ride
taxi ride

and i'm down to
your last cigarette and
this "we are one" crap
as you're invading
this thing you call
love - she smiles
way too much but
i'm glad you're on my side, sure
i'm glad you're on my side still

you think you deserve a trust fund
just because you want one
sure you talk the talk
when you need to
i fear the whole world is
starting to believe you
just another dead fag
to you that's all
just another light missing
in a long taxi line
taxi line

and i"m down to
your last cigarette and
this "we are one" crap
as you're invading
this thing you call
love - she smiles
way too much but
i'm glad you're on my side, sure
i'm glad you're on my side still

lily is dancing
on the table
we've all been pushed
too far today
even a glamorous
bitch can be in need
this is where you know
the honey from the killer bees
i'm glad you're on my side
sure
i'm glad you're on my side
sure
i'm glad you're on my side still

got a long taxi ride
got a long taxi ride

Ano ba ang tunay na kaibigan? pano mo malalaman kung ang itinuturing mong kaibigan ay di ka iiwan sa kahit na anong pagkakataon? mahirap sagutin kse wala namang words na pedeng mag describe kung pano. so, ano nga ba nagang sukatan ng pagiging true friends?
Para sken di taon ng pagkakakilala ang sukatan. May mga times kase na bagong pakilala lang sayo tas ang gaan na agad ng loob mo. di nakikita un sa taong binuno nyo bilang magkakilala pero sa samahan na namagitan sa inyo. ika nga nila, its not the quantity but the quality that counts

eh maiba tayo... Ano ba ang rason ng papapatulog sa hapon? sabe ng momy ko dati, para daw tumangkad. Naalala ko nung bata ako, every afternoon pinapatulog kme, pinipikpikan pako sa may pwet para makatulog. at ako naman magtutulog tulugan iniintay ko makatulog ung momy ko.. at pagnakita ko na tulog na sha at di na nag pipikpik, dahan dahan akong tumatayo, tahimik na bumaba ng hagdan, tapos, karipas ng takbo palabas. Nakakainggit nga kase ung mga boses ng batang naglalaro tuwing hapon sa labas. iniisip mo na dapat nadun ako at wala dito.. kaya ayun.. walang ibinunga ang pagtutulug tulugan sa hapon... fyi lang.. di din pala ako kumakain ng star margarine nun.. yuck!!!! sorry sa mga mahilig sa star, eh di ko lang talga sha type.

go to go na... ciao